Whew!

So glad the last 4 days are finally over with! We moved our office to a new location and I knew things would either go smoothly or be a disaster. Guess which it was...? Of course it was the latter of the two!

Let me just start by explaining that our new lease was signed in June. June people. The construction in the new office was supposed to be done in July so we would move in August 1st. To say this contractor sucked is an understatement. August 1st quickly turned to September 1st, which turned into October 1st. And then after all the errors made in the construction were found it was changed to October 15th. Guess who had a 2 week motorcycle trip planned for these dates? My boss/Dad. So guess who was left alone to over-see the move and get everything set up in the new location? Yours truly!

So let's start with Friday. We share an office with 2 other people. J was off for the day (convenient) and T was at the new location while a new desk was delivered and the phone lines were switched. I was left to move everything I could carry from the old location to the new location alone for the morning. I only cried once after smashing my fingers multiple times and then dropping a laptop holder-thingy on my toe. Lunch rolled around and after eating I felt better. T was even able to come help load in the afternoon. I was out of there by 5.

Saturday morning we got up at the crack of dawn to move the big items into the new location. I showed up with my Dad's truck and guess what? The new location didn't pass code so everything that had been placed in our offices Friday by ME had to be moved BACK out and into the empty space next door. Are you freaking kidding me?? At least this douche-tastic contractor paid movers to do this part of the job. But all my sweat and tears on Friday were for nothing.

So... We weren't able to get set up over the weekend as planned. Monday would not go smoothly either and I was about to find that out!

The inspector didn't come back until late Monday morning. So after lunch we started moving everything from the empty space next door into our new offices. Except now it's not orgainzied. We have to figure our where everything goes. And nothing can be put away or set up yet because we're still waiting for another inspector to clear the electrical part of the office. So about 4PM this guy shows up for about 3 minutes and says it's fine.

It's Tuesday at 11AM and I am somewhat set up to do business. Do you know how much my boss/Dad owes me? A lot. Monetary and favors. And believe me - when I go pick decor and plants and whatever else I decide I want for this place... He is going to pay for every cent!

So that was my weekend disaster. I'm glad it's over and I NEVER say that about a weekend!

It affects him more than I know...

Our IF I mean. And "him" is MrHoppy. Even though we are technically living child-free we are still IF. We will always be IF. I will always sympathize with others going through it. I will always remember what a failed cycle feels like, the anguish over the child that didn't come to be, the stress over the money you feel like you just flushed down the toilet. And for what? It's a desperate situation, one that affects every aspect of your life and marriage. Whether you want it to or not...

And sometimes I forget that it affects him as much, if not more, than it affects me. When we were in the battlefield of treatments I was the one that cried and got depressed. I was the one that counted days, timed sex so it wasn't too close to our IUIs - but not to far out either, researched to no end. But I didn't always think about how he must have felt when we found out how many sperm we had left post-wash. The numbers were dismal people - every time. I know he felt like a failure. I know he still feels like he's holding me back from being a Mother. I can't imagine what that feels like for him.

But he's always the strong one. The one that doesn't complain and tries to focus on the GOOD that our life holds. But last night at dinner he gave me a glimpse of how he might still be feeling. He told me that he saw on Facebook (damn you Facebook!) that his highschool girlfriend is pregnant with her first child. And that she just got married in July. And is due in May. He asked how it is fair that someone can pretty much get pregnant on their honeymoon and then people like us can't at all? He seemed sad but didn't say much else. I guess it will take us time to get used to the idea that we won't be parents. He's never let on that pregnancy announcements bother him so much. Or maybe I just wasn't paying attention...

Cookie Craze!

Have I ever mentioned how much MrHoppy L-O-V-E-S to bake? He seriously loves it and is great at it. It's always been one of his dreams to have a bakery of some sort or to sell his baked goods.

Have I ever mentioned how much I D-O-N-T love to bake?! I don't enjoy it at all. To me it's a hassle, it just creates a big mess to clean up and I don't even like to eat sweets. Maybe that's part of it? I don't eat it so why would I go to all that trouble?

:::flashback to December 2006:::
It's a couple weeks before our wedding and we get 2 huge snowstorms back to back. The kind that keep us cooped up in the house for days, unable to leave? The snow in our driveway was up to my hips so we couldn't get a car out. And I have long legs people... Luckily (insert sarcasm) MrHoppy made it to the store before it got too bad to get enough supplies to bake for a month straight. And enough beer to keep us happy while we did it - that was my only saving grace. Until about day 2.5 when I put my foot down. NO MORE BAKING! It really was funny. We had baked goods coming out of our you know where's... Pumpkin bread, egg nog cookies, sugar cookies, peppermint bark, ginger snaps... You name it, we baked it. I gave up while he kept on bakin'!

Anyway, the moral of that story is this man loves to bake. So when an opportunity to do it comes along he always volunteers. Yesterday he made about 4 dozen pumpkin shaped sugar cookies for a kickoff party at his work Wednesday night. The only glich? He needed someone to decorate them. I recruited my bestie  (sister) to come over last night and help me decorate. So we had girl's night and helped MrHoppy all at once! It was our first experience making our own buttermilk frosting (only homemade for my man) and it turned out well. After we felt it was orange enough we sat down and decorated. They turned out really cute and we had a good time doing it. We sipped on wine and chatted to catch up (gossip of course!). Great night and he was happy with the results.

Here is a picture of one of mine. Since we still don't have a new camera I haven't been taking pictures as much as I usually would. Plus I was just out of the shower after my sweaty night at the gym so no pictures of me were needed... :)

My little dancing skeleton!

Weird Turn-on

Is anyone else turned on by their husband when he is being uber productive? Or am I the only one?

Example: Saturday was a great day. We got up and worked out (yay!), came home and had a healthy breakfast and then worked in the yard for hours. I just kept looking at him - thankful he wasn't complaining, realizing I NEVER could have gotten all the work done without him, and glad we could spend that quality time together. We only got the front yard done so I'm keeping my fingers crossed he is motivated this Sunday to do the same in the back yard... You truly don't realize how many bushes you have until you have to trim each and every one!

Overall it was a great weekend!

We also spent time with friends we hadn't seen in awhile Saturday night. They had their 2nd baby in June and I am happy to say I only felt true happiness for them when I met her. She is so cute and I held her a lot that night. Their almost 3 year old son LOVED my DH so it was awesome to see them playing together. I know he'll have a great bond with our nephew as he grows up.

Speaking of the nephew.... My sister, BIL and nephew came over for dinner last night. It was a great evening and little O-Town (one of his many nicknames!) is learning and growing SO much. He is "army crawling" and rolling everyone. We are going to have to baby-proof soon too! He goes straight for the dog's water bowls when he's in the kitchen. He has 2 little teeth on the bottom and they are adorable. He loves his voice and screams to hear it. The cutest thing of all is when he gets excited. He shakes his head back and forth and does this little snorting thing with his nose. It's to die for... :) And if you do it he will copy you. He also gives big sloppy kisses which I L.O.V.E!

Here is a little something for your viewing pleasure. Does it get any cuter than that hat?? His Mom and Dad got it for him yesterday and he wore it long enough for me to snap a picture. It's hard to get any good ones of him lately - he's always moving! Such a big boy. :)

Who takes care of me?

I don't know what my problem is today. I am feeling isolated and alone for some reason. And I feel as though I  take care of everyone and there isn't anyone left to take care of me. It's stupid, it's weird and I'm just in a funk today I guess. MrHoppy tries - I know he does. And he does a good job 99% of the time. There are just a few things bothering me lately...

1. I feel like I'm the supportive and encouraging one when it comes to our healthy eating and fitness. I'm the one who drags him out of bed, begs him to come to the gym with me, plans meals and makes sure they are healthy. But there isn't ever anyone to drag me out of bed when I'm not feeling motivated. Nobody to challenge me to get it done, telling me I'll feel better once we're finished. If I'm not the motivating one - it doesn't get done. And then I feel guilty about it.

2. The same is true for eating. If I'm not the strong one saying "no, we shouldn't eat out  or "no we don't need the calories at happy hour" then we go. It's never him telling me we shouldn't, we should save the calories and eat at home, etc. Sometimes if I'm tired I need someone to make a good decision for me. Like I do for them. Stupid and small I know but sometimes that's what I want and need! Someone else to be the strong one!

3. Coffee. Small and stupid again, I know. But I make the coffee every morning for us. This morning I got up to find that since he didn't go to the store like I asked we are out of coffee. So I drove to work tired and annoyed that I didn't have my morning coffee. Plus would it kill him to get out of bed 5 minutes earlier and make coffee for me?

4. Part 2 of Number 3. The store. He had the day off yesterday, nothing planned. I asked that he swing by the store to pick up a few things. We're totally out of food and he said he would. He didn't. It's so frustrating. So I didn't have anything to bring for lunch so will have to get a Lean Cuisine at the store.

5. Courtesy. It goes a LONG way with me. I am super aware of common courtesy and it drives me absolutely crazy when people don't notice they are being rude. I make our lunches every night. I hardboil 6 eggs at the beginning of the week and when MrHoppy takes the last one and doesn't make more it drives me batty. I go to the refrigerator for my normal breakfast to find there aren't any left. He took the last one and didn't bother to boil more. Big deal? Absolutely not. Something that bothers me to no end? Absolutely!

6. Work. I can't even get into it now but I'm taking care of my boss every minute of every day I am here. This will be taken care of come review time in December though. A big raise is in my future...

Sorry to be such a downer in this post. I don't mean to be but sometimes you just have to get it out!

Thankful on Thursday

I'm thankful today for the changing seasons and everything that comes along with them. It's finally cooling off here and I love waking up to the crisp mornings while snuggled under the blankets in bed. We won't be able to keep the windows open much longer so I'm enjoying it while I can!

I'm thankful my sister and BIL are kind enough to let us tag along to do thing with our nephew - we're going to join them at some point this month at the pumpkin patch and I'm so excited to see the little man experience it! And take loads of pictures of course.

I'm also thankful for pumpkin spice lattes at Starbucks on Saturday mornings with my hubby. There are some benefits to it being just the two of us and this is one of them. When else can you sit for an hour and a half without a care in the world - chatting, people watching and playing Words With Friends while sitting across the table from one another?? Yes, we are that nerdy.

What are you thankful for today?

Me Legs!

Oh they are sore today. Yesterday was a frustrating day at work. Without getting into too many boring details - suffice it to say that I was annoyed and ready to go home and blow off some steam. I got a handy new application on my iPhone last week called RunKeeper. So I decided since it was a nice evening I would head out for a run with my big girl Bisa for protection. I thought it might get dark while we were out... But don't worry, I texted the hubby at work to let him know where I was going just in case. Safety first people!

We ran, and ran, and then ran some more. Uphill a lot of the way. It was only about 4.5 miles but that is good for me. I love to run but I'm more of a 5K type of girl. :) It felt awesome and was just what I needed to destress and be a happy balanced woman again.

I was all wired and high on life when we got done so then I steamed the carpet in the living room. Then I showered and ate a healthy dinner of egg whites and a corn tortilla. And then I organized about 1/2 of the 1,000 pictures I got back from SnapFish this week. I ran out of room and need to buy more albums or else I would have kept going. This has become a big project that I put off for too long. I just finished 2008 so I that shows you just how long it's been put off... I have a long way to go!

But this was my mistake: I sat for about 2 hours after my run doing the pictures and when I finally got up to go to bed I realized I was going to be sore! 2 Ibuprofin and a good night of sleep helped but my legs are tired today.

And I gained a pound after all that work? How is that even fair? :)