Tuesday, December 15, 2009

To run or not to run...

Well I've been sick since last Wednesday - congested, cough, exhausted, you get the gist. So after missing workouts my last 2WW (for NO reason!, damn you BFN) I missed even more last week. I went last night and just did the bike and lifted but I really feel like a good long run. But I don't know if I'm ready, if my lungs are ready. Should I just suck it up and go do 2 miles or something? That would be better than nothing right? And if I get tired I can just stop.
There - I talked myself into it! It won't take long anyway and then it's home to clean our filthy house before our cookie decorating party tomorrow night! And a much needed beer, or 2... with friends.

Monday, December 7, 2009


I am so frustrated. That's the best way to sum it up. I hate this IF journey and wish it was over. I am so done. I took a test Saturday morning 12DPIUI and got a stark white. Nothing, nada. Right before going to a baby shower... Which was fine, it wasn't hard as I'm SO very happy for my friend. It's just part of the IF battle I suppose. We then had a fun night in our college town at a surprise birthday party. Stayed up way too late and played "we are in college again". Paid for it yesterday!

In other craptastic news - my DH is having a flare up of his ulcerative colitis. Don't worry, no gory details but it's not good. When he was diagnosed 5 years ago he landed in the hospital for 2 weeks, got a blood clot in his leg and his heart stopped because he was in such bad shape... SO needless to say I'm worried. Really worried. But he's going to the Doctor this afternoon and we will be back to taking it easy. He needs lots of rest and a healthy diet. So... hopefully 2009 will be over soon and 2010 will be our year...? It's our turn to catch a break I think

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

People Kill Me

Before I forget - a lady at the gym tonight was wearing a blue tooth while working out. Really? Douche

A) why would anyone wear one?
B)why would you wear one at the gym?
C)what call is important enough that you need to have one on at all times? Pretty sure none...

People Kill Me!

Feeling Depressed

8DPIUI and I'm feeling no hope. I hate it, it's so not fair. Last week was so nice, I didn't think about it at all since we were in WY visiting the IL's. I wish I could forget about life every week. I don't know what I'm going to do with another BFN...

I know it's early but I did an IC tonight. Of course it was negative. I could say it's because it wasn't FMU or that my pee was too diluted but I know that's not the case. I'm sure this IUI didn't work and it breaks my heart. We already decided we would be taking December off so maybe we'll start back up with IUI #3 in January. **sigh**

I'm tired of feeling discouraged and sad.