Friday, April 30, 2010

The Day My DH's Heart Stopped

I need to do a post all about Mexico :) but for some reason the last few days this subject has been on my mind. Perhaps it's because I've been crabby with him the last couple days (thank you AF!) or because we were spending so much time together on vacation but I have been thinking about that day a lot...

No, I'm not talking about the day he met me! *wink, wink* I'm talking about the day his heart literally stopped and he had to be brought back by nurses and doctors. And do I remember the exact date? Nope, he does but for the life of me I can't remember! Here's the story...

I'll start at the beginning: It was the Summer of 2003, I had just graduated from college and moved about an hour away from our college town where he was still living. I had my first "real" job and of course he came down almost every weekend to visit me and my crazy roommates. We partied, we played, we went camping, we had fun. But we were noticing he had to "go" a lot more and he was starting to lose weight. And when he "went" it was becoming bloody. I won't get much more graphic than that but, long story long, he was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis right before he went back to school in the Fall.

Now if you don't know anything about UC (and I didn't) it's a pretty bad auto-immune disease. Related to Crohn's. His Dad also has it too but my DH has an extremely bad case. It's literally ulcers in your colon and intestines that are inflamed, bleeding and cause an insane amount of cramping. In a matter of months my big, burly 220lb boyfriend turned into a very sick, weak 160lb boyfriend. He couldn't eat, he couldn't go to school, he had zero energy and didn't ever leave his house. I started visiting him on weekends since he couldn't make the drive to my house. It didn't help that he had pretty much dismissed the symptoms for the whole Summer. By the time he was diagnosed it was out of control.

In late September I was leaving his house on a Sunday evening. Damn real job and work on Monday mornings! He was feeling especially bad and had been complaining that his leg and groin area hurt. We didn't think anything of it - it seemed that everyday he was hurting somewhere new. Until he woke up Monday morning and his leg and man bits were extremely swollen. After spending the day in the ER they found he had a blood clot. And not just any old blood clot, it extended from his groin to his foot. His WHOLE leg.

So what do these genius doctors do? They put him on Coumadin (blood thinner) to treat the clot. Did they think about the fact that he was losing TONS of blood every day in his stools? Nope, didn't give it a 2nd thought. The medicine they gave him pretty much caused him to bleed out over a couple of days. 2 weeks in the hospital and 8 blood transfusions later he still wasn't getting better. During a particularly bad day he was sitting on his portable toilet, feeling sick, feeling dizzy, feeling very off - and it happened. He coded, his heart stopped and he crashed onto the floor, toilet and all. They were able to revive him pretty quickly and thankfully his Dad was there when he woke up. I was in the car on my way up to visit him. Imagine my surprise when I arrived at the hospital about 20 minutes later to be told by his tearful Dad that I couldn't see him for awhile and his heart had stopped? It was one of the worst moments of my life. We spent the evening together alone in his room crying. It was so scary.

So that's my story. And writing it down and thinking about it so much this week makes me want to hug and kiss him and tell him how thankful I am that he is here with me, not just a boyfriend anymore, but my husband. I WILL do that this evening when he gets home from work. :)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Gorgeous Blogger Award

Thank you to Anne at BabyOstie for this award!

The rules for this award go as follows:

* Accept and thank the fellow bloggie that gave this to you - DONE!

* List 10 things about you

* List 5 additional things you don't like

* Award this to 10 fellow bloggies

OK, here we go!

1. I have a sister and we are best friends. We have been as long as I can remember. She and my DH know me better than anyone

2. I am a HUGE animal lover and can't stand watching movies/nature shows where animals die

3. I absolutely love Mexican food. I could eat it for every meal for the rest of my life

4. I have to exercise regularly. Running specifically. Otherwise I am irritable and not fun to be around... At all...

5. Orchids are my favorite flower and I'm planning a tattoo on my side and ribs with orchids. Hopefully this Summer

6. I like cheesey family movies and teen chick flicks - Think Cheaper by the Dozen, Mrs. Doubtfire, Bring it On, Aquamarine, etc. I admit it...

7. I love shopping for clothes - A LOT

8. DH and I have 2 boy and 2 girl names picked out for the future children we may never have. And I'll never tell...

9. I love Diet Pepsi

10. I absolutely love to travel and we do it as much as humanly (and financially!) possible

Now for the 5 things I don't like

1. My freckles - I'm glad they aren't darker than they are because I hate them

2. That I am so impatient - it's a constant struggle and I'm working on it

3. Bad drivers - This will make my blood boil faster than anything else

4. That I question things in my head all the time - sometimes it's exhausting

5. Laziness in general irritates me...

Now I will pass this along to the following lucky ladies:

Thursday, April 15, 2010

My Little Love...

Pictures of my nephew for your viewing pleasure! I can't believe how much they change and how quickly! He is so serious!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Happy Hump Day!

The week is 1/2 over which means I only have 4 more work days until we leave for Mexico (not counting today of course)! I still can't wait if you haven't noticed...

I haven't talked much about our IF lately - which is a good thing I think. It isn't on my mind constantly. We haven't done any treatments/cycling since February and I think it was much needed time away. Babies have been on my mind though, I can't lie about that. I look at moms and babies and I honestly don't think I'll ever be a mom. It's starting to sink in and I'm actually starting to get used to the idea - today anyway. Some days it hits me and I cry and get upset, but today I think I might be OK. Our life will go on, I'll enjoy it and I will have lots of nieces and nephews to spoil rotten. We will see I suppose.

In other news, my DH got home from his boys trip last night. It was great to see him after a few days! I don't, however, miss sleeping with him ::get your head out of the gutter - I'm talking acutal sleep!:: I swear I could sleep alone every night for the rest of my life and be content with it. I am such a light sleeper every move or sound he makes wakes me up. I think it hurts his feelings that I feel that way but I can't help it!!

Friday, April 9, 2010

Ahhh... Weekend

The weekend is finally almost here! DH is leaving for Chicago at the crack of dawn tomorrow morning (Crazy boys trip, keep him in your thoughts and prayers!)so I have the next few days to myself! Which will make operation "beach body" much easier...

Tomorrow will be busy - I am throwing a Bachelorette party for my dear friend with 5 other bridesmaids so we have a lot to do! Cooking, shopping for booze, filling the penis pinata and getting dolled up for a night on the town... It's been awhile since I've done a bachelorette party! I know the night will end up crazy and I'll spend Sunday recovering but I'm ready - I don't go out often and I'm looking forward to it! Then the countdown to her wedding and sunny, warm, beautiful Mexico REALLY begins!

days but who is counting??!!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I'm a Hot Mess!

I've been having sciatic pain for the last year or so - it's terrible. Shooting pain that gets worse when I have to sit for long periods of time. I don't have the lower back pain that is commonly associated with it either which has been confusing. I would not wish this on my worst enemy, seriously.

So last Fall I did PT with no luck. Then I did it again in the Winter because the pain was getting worse. Still no luck. They tried traction with NO LUCK. So now I have decided I'm going to Chiropractic route. And I was shocked at my first appointment as to what they found in the x-rays...

First she told me I have an extra lumbar vertebrae. It happens but isn't very common. My lumbar vertabrae are also degenerative meaning the "stuff" between them is too thin and it is causing them to be out of alignment. Great. THEN she tells me that I have mild scoliosis. No surprise there as it runs in the family. Thanks Dad! My hips are also out of alignment and crooked. Last of all she asks me how many times I've broken my tailbone? Um... None? I guess it is tilted and looks as if it's been broken. She said I must handle pain pretty well with all these issues and since I've had this going on a year now.

I'm going 3 times a week for 2 weeks to see if I see any improvement. Icing my lower back and the spot where my pain is (right under my butt bone) all night every night which is a pain. But I would do just about anything to feel normal again.

Could my DH and I be any more of a mess? Seriously?

Friday, April 2, 2010

Preppy Mafia Award

Aww it's my first award! Thank you to Anne at The Makings of a Baby Ostie!

1. Who is your style icon?

Jennifer Aniston, Kristen Bell and Lauren Conrad (I know, I know but she dresses so cute!) I love casual but put together looks. Plus they are just cute. :)

2. What is your favorite Socialite Lit. book?
Not sure on this one...

3. Favorite party theme?

I love outdoor grilling, sitting on our fabulous deck and drinking cold beers. Warm weather can't get here fast enough!

4. Go-To Halloween Costume?

This is not a joke, I wore a similar outfit just last year... We have a friend whose birthday is Halloween so we usually celebrate.

5. Extravagance you can't live without?

Burberry perfume, I love it!

6. Living person you admire?
My parents - they did an amazing job raising my sister and I - even when we were hard to handle!

7. Greatest Fear?
Being alone. In general. I am alone a lot because of DHs job and I get scared. I'm also afraid of ending up alone in life if that makes sense...

8. Traitas you deplore in yourself?
I am impatient - to a fault sometimes. I am also very critical of myself and others. My DH likes to call me bossy... I think that's a nice way to put it sometimes!

9. What talent would you most like to have?
Dancing - hands down. I LOVE watching the show "So You Think You Can Dance" and wish I was one of the contestants! I love watching dance.

10. What is your greatest achievement?
I would say graduating college, I don't love going to school so it was a struggle at times but I did it!

I don't have 10 blogger friends to tag so I'll list as many as I can!

Jenni at It's Always Fun and Interesting
The Huber Household
Chrissy at Trying to Get a Bun in my Oven

The rules:
Post the "Preppy Mafia" picture on your blog.
Tell who tagged you.
Answer the questions.
Tag 10 people & let them know you tagged them!

Thursday, April 1, 2010


Can I just say that I hate PMS? Today I am tired, so irritable, annoyed with my DH (which lately - isn't anything new) and on top of that in pain. My sciatic is KILLING me, I can barely walk. So could AF just show her ugly face? Pretty please? I promise to be nicer to everyone today if I can just get it out of the way!

I want to crawl behind my desk, close my eyes and take a nice nap... Or better yet go home and do that in my cozy bed!