I promise to post pictures and write about our Florida trip soon. We had a fabulous time and it was a much needed break. Today just isn't the day.
I just have such a sad feeling about life today. Some of the wonderful women I met on my support website have had terrible things happen to them in the last week or so. I don't want to be specific as it's not my place to write about their loss and heartache. But Thursday night I broke down in tears for one of them specifically when I checked in and saw her news. My heart felt like it was literally breaking. I was angry, sad, frustrated and just so tired of the terrible things that happen in life. How much can one couple be forced to endure? Why would life be taken that was so difficult and painful to create in the first place?
I'll say it again. How much can people take? Why do they have to? Because life isn't fair. I understand that we can't have everything that we want in this life. But it doesn't change the fact that I hate it, it makes me sad and I can't express the sympathy I feel for them in words.
I'm still getting over our loss. The loss of a dream. Missing a child we'll never meet, that never was. I'm still raw even if I'm moving on and doing better. Maybe that's why when these things happen I feel devestated?
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